It's been a rough week

I am still slowly losing. I'm at 292 right now. I started at 318. It's a long battle. I ran into a display of Easter bunny chocolates at the grocery store yesterday and almost started crying. Sometimes I'm really strong, other times (like that one!), not so much. In times like these, I have to remember how I felt when my blood sugar was 325. LIKE SHIT. I just have to remind myself of how far I've come. My blood sugar has been consistently running about 125 for the past couple of weeks, which is great!!! I have been feeling extremely lethargic and cold. I'm having my thyroid tested this week to see if that is acting up again. If my thyroid is too low, I may need a little stronger dose to boost it up. When your thyroid is too low, it can make losing weight almost impossible. :(

Work was VERY stressful this week, which made facing the Easter bunny candy display even harder!!! :( I did go to OA on Wednesday. I have gone to the gym on Monday, Tuesday and Friday. I didn't go today. I will go tomorrow, so that will be four times this week. I have decided that staying on the Arc Trainer for an hour each day is wayyy too much and I am going to burn out if I keep up that pace. I will go 1/2 hour each time. I don't want to burn out and hate going to the gym, thus causing me to stop going altogether!!!!

I celebrated my 4 year anniversary of my diagnosis of Appendix cancer w/PMP. It was, as always, bittersweet. Bitter because I wish I had never been diagnosed with cancer (twice), lost my ovaries and my peace of mind. Sweet because of all of the people that are now in my life that weren't before. I have made so many dear friends along the way and that is ALWAYS a good thing!!!! :)

I am going to church tonight. I haven't done that in a long time. I hope He isn't mad at me!!! :(