so much to say!

I am struggling right now to lose anything because my dear thyroid is still dead! I have a physical on the May 9th. I also see my oncologist on the 9th. I am nervous about that because BOTH of my tumor markers edged up slightly. I don't know what the onc. will say about that? Right now, I am sleeping 9-11 hours a day and am still tired....I can't wait until my thyroid wakes back up!!!

I started training with my friend Dan from my gym. He is awesome!! I am thinking about "possibly" training for the 2012 bodybuilding show. MAYBE. My real goal though is to get down to a weight where I can start running again. I miss that "runner's high".

I am tired of not living. It is getting old. So WHAT if I am not someone's wife or mother. Who cares??? Jesus loves me and that's the ONLY man I will EVER need in my life!!!

We finally caught and executed Osama Bin Laden!!! Thank the good Lord!!! I know that that is not the end of the evil though because there are so many JUST like him waiting to take their turn...all we can do is pray for safety!!!

I celebrated my 39th birthday on April 21st. next year it is on to the big 4-0!!! :) I don't care because it means I LIVED TO SEE IT!!!! :) My 30's were a nightmare. I was diagnosed with the sarcoma in my leg at 33 and then the appendix cancer/PMP when I was 34!!

The 2011 Relay for Life is approaching. I can't wait to attend the Survivor Dinner and ceremonies!! I attended last year and it was VERY emotional for me. I bawled through the whole survivor lap!!

I have been feeling very sick because of my thyroid not functioning (my blood test showed my TSH at 14!!) :( that is extremely low. It makes it hard to even move because I am so very tired. I pray that my dr. can help me soon with this so I can start feeling some energy again. Through it all I continue to go to the gym but my workouts are suffering. The same workout that I did a month and a half ago has become sooooo hard!! :(

Also, I finished my medical billing/coding/terminology class about a month ago! I got a 99.89% final grade!! I have scheduled the certification exam on June 24th. I am TERRIFIED!!! :(

I have a lot of goals.

1. Grow closer to Jesus!!
2. Start reading again
3. accomplish my fitness goals by my 40th birthday (4/21/12)
4. Pass my certification test and possibly take the next higher cert. exam
5. To be happy again!!

Lord willing, I will accomplish all of these and more!!!

Thank you for following my journey! I will update VERY soon!!!